Meanderings Of An Abject Fool

It started for me about 1 month before COVID hit I was helping take care of elderly (bout 86ish) parents. Mom late stage ALZ dad with late stage male. During the day two wonderful home health care ladies did much while I worked a particularly tedious job at one of the nations largest coffee chains. I was working full time on the condition when part time was available I’d get that as parents needed more attention than i was giving. Every time i brought it up i was shot down immediately and tired of waiting for a change i put in my two weeks. That evening while reading a book i heard a slight tumble and went into living room my mother was already in bed and dad was on floor. He’d fallen cut his forehead and was attempting to stand while saying he was alright which he wasn’t. Still trying to stand i called my sister always the reasonable, responsible one) obviously she said don’t listen and call ambulance.

Dad in hospital mom in bed i called my manager “ya know that to weeks I gave today? It’s starting earlier parents need someone(me) all the time and i quit. Told sister home health care workers and that was that. I had to quit my job so I could start working.

Several years earlier I received e-reader(like all book junkies) but it sat unused till my work started. It was not only my respite, but an immediate shot in the arm if i wanted a book no waiting just download and start reading.

That’s how it went for a while when HHC was there, shopping, taking care of bills, reading and the web looking for interesting tidbits to occupy the dead spots. At night sleeping facing the door in case someone unknowingly wandered not knowing they were. At last my troubled sleep habits served a purpose.

On one of my interweb forays I found it. It was a cross between The Jetsons and Buckminster Fuller it was groovy it was the Aptera.

I immediately reserved one with the 1K range and waited and waited. Read all updates and did i mention waited. It became my white whale just out of reach a future promise that may never come to fruition. It was necessary I’ve always needed the future possibility of something NEATO regardless of it happening but as Alexander Pope said Hope springs eternal.